It is rather unfortunate to precisely predict something bad is to happen just so that it follows the Murphy’s Law.

If anything can go wrong, it will.

I walked out of my hometown home this morning with a bad feeling that I might have forgotten something. Alas, as if the heavens above answered my unrequited prayer, I realised that I’ve left my house key upon 30 minutes arriving in Kuala Lumpur.

An undesired but memorable ending to my homecoming vacation, one would seem to see. Yours truly is looking into the hidden hands of karma.

They are the lamp that guide us. Through thick and through thin, since the dawn of British imperialism, they were here as a beacon of hope.

“Jangan terlalu cepat membuang pelita, kerana riang melihatkan fajar akan menyingsing; kerana hari siang juga akan berakhir. Jangan nanti bila malam mendakap senja, warga dan bangsa akan hidup teraba-raba – hilang haluan, kerana diselimuti kegelapan malam tanpa pelita.”

The words of The Raja Muda of Perak Raja Dr Nazrin Shah is deep in meaning, and is clear in message. “The people must be conscious not to be hasty to throw the lamp away, happy with the dawn of daylight; as daylight too will end. Let it not be that as night falls, people grope about directionless, blanketed in darkness without a lamp”.

The so-called street democracy freedom that we enjoyed so far is akin to the daylight; what we have seen is the beautiful scenery that it bought as the sun rise from the east. What we have not seen however are the things that will stripped us of what we are now. For good or for bad is up for debate, but to throw away the lamp shall the night falls will only make us the ultimate loser.

Dream is such a powerful tool to make us realise our inner self. It reflects on things that is unthinkable off this conscious mind.

The previous love of my former state came to me in my dream. She came with a message – a strong one given the circumstances of my former affairs – asking me to forget about the past, and move on. Of which I think I have successfully done for the past couple of years. I think.

But the actual message was not about forgetting the past. The message was about forgiving the past. Of which I am reluctant to think about since this heart of mine still bears the mark of a broken promise. I can still feel it.

It was just a dream, but I’ll be damned to credit it as such. It was my heart trying to tell me something. And I’m too stubborn to listen to her.

Apr 182009

It is not about me; it is about us – me and reality. I had a dream of a life that is different from my current situation; and I am currently dreaming of a future life that will be different from my past situation.

Reality brings me down as a human, but rise me up to the challenges of life. I am looking forward to a life that will test my mettle and prove my strength.